Saturday, October 30, 2004

Its amazing to me how easily it is to hang one's hopes, dreams and aspirations on one pivitol point in person life. Maybe its my picean dreamyness that causes this, but I thought I had finally broken free of this earthly bond. The landscape has changed so much in the last 365 days. In looking back it wasnt wasnt that all bad. I did some really important discovery about myself. Discarded those things that no longer were important and welcomed in those things that had become very important. I woke up this morning with the tagline of this post in my head. I am nevcr really quite sure where the rest of this post takes me. Things I know now is are very important that I was too foolish to see last year. From Oct. to Oct my life is nowhere where I thought it would be. So much for the story book ending. Cliches have never been my style anyway. The longer I am here, The longer I know I dont belong here, I found where I want to be although I am where I need to be. for now. It seems the shroud of indifference has fallen and this temporary situation will lead to life, ending the way it needs to. I just wished the one lied that was told last year wouldnt have been for NOW I have to pay for it. Until til you do right be me, nothing you will ever do will be successful.