Well its been over a year since I had my own functional computer. and I finally got on e up and running. Cathardic as it was to bulid it was a metahpor for my life. My old computer as it was great at the time, all the components worked together and they got the job done, however disfunctional in the end it was. I qet it now. well much like those old components are so was my iife is now, my shell is all here but what makes up me is now no longer the same. It is true I got a good spirtual kick to me head today. Actually more of a reminder of who I once was and now longer am. I guess it was a good thing as destroyed as I was after I heard it coming thats usuallly how the oracle strikes... too close to the truth about my need get ou here is. find me more lies later.