Welcome back... I'm starting to find writing voice again as the closer I get to the realization of some of the things in the world being righted again.

Its funny. One or two of the most powerful lesson's I continue to learn, (not as if I forget) is that of the universe. It is most perfect state, it has a tendency to want balance, fairness, and overall equality. The interesting part of about this, is that most humans, myself included have an overwhelming need and sense of immediacy that we demand the universe provide for, and when it doesn't.. we like hurl rocks at it, because after, someone needs to make amends for 'my loss'.

The universe as part of this equilibrium will fix itself. In other words, things like revenge is a waste of time, because anything possibly think up, the universe will trump with an elegance that is second to none. The second and more startling part of this lesson is realizing you seldom get what you want.. but you always get what you need.. F me for quoting the Stones, that wasnt my intent. The point is, as humans we think we know what we want, in reality, we don't. I could dive down into the depths of choice, and how the things we choose may or may not be to please others... but quite frankly, I've only got a about 500 words in me, before I click away to another site.

Goals are fine. But there is something to be said for the surrendering a bit of yourself to the universe. Not in wreck-less manner, mind you, but more of a permission to fail. as someone whose failed at a lot things, and had some success, I almost find the failure more satisfying as it usually motivates me to either examine things in a way I never thought before, or do some much needed introspection.

This blog is almost 10 years old. Its fun to back and read some of the angriest posts. Hate blogging. OMG Fuck that. The older I Get, the stronger these ability get the more resolute I become.