Pour out my soul late in to the night. I can only try to figure what direction my life should go. Should I continue to Rage?

Since I have returned to Illinois for this visit, I conclude that somes its better to just let go. My soul hurts. This pain hasnt been like this in almost a decade. Time has reset itself and I am again put on this path. I knew this eight months ago, and my reluctance to accept my fate only caused me so much more pain that it should have. Had I let go, and stopped raging I would not be where I sit today. Broke, Alone, and wishing for a chance to start anew.