I experienced all again tonight. Everything comes back on itself. unlocked the past has become.. I relive the nastyness that the past two years have taken me on. My loved ones lost, and now found. I wish my muse wasnt that one of saddness. I felt it all over again. My spririt is broken...I think its meant to be this way..only when something is broken does it mean to be fixed. BTW.. I thought about sunday last convo and I looked up the words to OVERKILL:

Overkill
I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know will be alright
Perahaps its just my imagination

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat, shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

Alone between the sheets
Only brings exasperation
It's time to walk the streets
Smell the desperation

At least there's pretty lights
And though there's little variation
It nullifies the night
From overkill

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat, shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know will be alright
It's just overkill

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat, shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

Boy Howdee are you right... this is exactly what I was describing.... theres that boy howdee thing again... I cant sleep now... my ghost still havent faded... damnit...